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Neuroqueer baby emerita and fomosexual relationship anarchist. Formerly a lot of things and nowadays a mom.

"you get more excited about interfaces than anyone else i have ever met" -terra


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try me

me in a knitted sweater dress, looking a bit weary
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new #introduction! this jasmine [ʝasˈmiːn] is an intense and inconsistent 40+ single mom. formerly a lot of things including composer, political activist and teacher, but three years ago transformed into a project of healing both self and others. multi-dimensional masker and neuroqueer with an &. possesses skills like creepy people reading, chaotic moving and unconditional love. hobbies may include psychology, long walks and giving cis women gender envy. i like hugs, trans people and vengeance. will always be online and never clean my room πŸ’•πŸ’•

me, selfie with a wide lens from above, I'm looking up at the camera, wearing a summery orange top with short sleeves and an abstract print, a white and black striped hoodie tied around my waist. it is sunny and early spring
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transition selfies thread (cw: implied nudity)

July, 23 months. Time's running out on dealing with the eviction thingβ€”but I actually manage to fix it. ✌✌️

Slowly beginning to get into better shape again, with lots of walking and healthier eating. Feeling more playful again after replacing much of the impending doom with rest. (So much rest.)

No matter how little exercise I got, I always had a very muscular build. There are pictures from my yeti couch potato days, when all I ever did was eat unhealthy food and sit at the computer, and I still look really strong. It's just the way my body is, whether on testosterone or not. It's been stressful because of the dysphoriaβ€”but this month was when HRT had finally changed me enough that I could begin appreciating it.

This is actually the first time I've been able to appreciate my own body at all, ever!

Double mirror selfie! To the right is my back, butt and legs, wearing a grey tight t-shirt and black tight shorts. To the left is my face and my upper body seen from in front of it through another mirror. Sitting on a white sheet and looking up at the camera right above my head, totally undressed, my left hand and my chin covering my chest, sticking out my tongue so that it obscures my crotch. What you actually see in this picture is thighs, left arm, face and tongue. Colourfully filtered picture of me looking down at you with an expression like I'm examining you, my hair floofed up in circular curls mirror selfie. I'm looking at my phone. I'm wearing blue pants and a yellow top with a messy blue and turquoise print.
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transition selfies thread

August, 2 years! I started walking for several hours per day, for both my mental and physical health.

There are so many mornings now when I wake up, put on my old worn out glasses, go to the bathroom and see a girl in the mirror. It's so joyful! Even if it's still sometimes confusing after so many years thinking that this was impossible. It clearly isn't though. πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

selfie indoors, wearing a hoodie with a zipper selfie on a dirt road through the forest, slate grey dress and red bag mirror selfie, light grey t-shirt tucked into light blue boot cut jeans, right arm held in front of my tummy, leaning back a bit and putting more weight on my left hip, head tilted to the right with a serious expression selfie without makeup and with a visible facial hair shadow. wearing my crappy old worn out glasses. smiling!
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Here's some music I made. I'm pinning this and will update it if I publish more. I'll try naming the genresβ€”but I kind of consider all of it to be nu jazz.
Cipherlove, jazz fusion pastiche
March, nu jazz
Uphill (unfinished), cinematic/orchestral
Calling the Kettle Black, nu jazz
take 4 (cover), bitpop
Newborn (cover), jazz
Improvisation, free improvisation
GΓ₯nglΓ₯t, composition etude, Swedish folk

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My important trans threads!

These three were pinned individually before, but I want to pin other things too, so I'm linking them instead now.The quote that made me accept myself

β€œFighting the world as your authentic self is better than fighting yourself on behalf of the world.”On trans joy as the solution
Trans people deserve to start out from a place of joy.Transitioning is an act of radical self-love
Transitioning is an act of loving yourself because it presupposes that you accept yourself and decide to let yourself blossom, and it is radical because your whole life has taught you not to do it.
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Decorative. β€œTransitioning is an act of radical self-love” written over a drawing of blue, white and pink flowers.
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try me

me in a knitted sweater dress, looking a bit weary
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@jasmine@chaosfem.tw

try me

me smiling, sitting on the sofa leaning forward towards you. curly brown hair with lots of volume, a yellow top with a big blue and pink flower print
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am i out of touch?

no, it's the brainworms who are wrong

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gods i'm beginning to figure out my sexual orientation and it's so queer it's honestly ridiculous

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defederating is for cowards. do it properly and defenestrate that instance

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my suggestions so far have been
just call me "my ex" without connecting it to me. it was five years ago anyway
talk about heredity in terms of "the other biological parent" or "the sperm donor" instead of connecting it to me. i'm his parent either way

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my ex has asked me if i have any thoughts on how she can talk about our previous relationship without mentioning that i'm trans but also without talking about it like i am a woman, since that wasn't how she saw it at the time

i'm looking for actual ideas

don't tell me to just tell her to go tuck herself. i would if that were an option. it is not.

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she also wants suggestions on how to talk to her friends about hereditary traits and our child without outing me

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my ex has asked me if i have any thoughts on how she can talk about our previous relationship without mentioning that i'm trans but also without talking about it like i am a woman, since that wasn't how she saw it at the time

i'm looking for actual ideas

don't tell me to just tell her to go tuck herself. i would if that were an option. it is not.

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transphobia makes people exploitable

like all bigotry, transphobia is a distortion of reality. transphobes misunderstand reality in predictable ways. this makes them exploitable. abusers who aren't themselves biased like that will still use it to exploit people who are. it's a lot harder to do that if you're trans yourself, but it isn't impossible

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i have mood swings, therefore i am