Lexi πΈ
@lexi@lea.pet
i was never really one for writing suicide notes
not sure what's different this time, but i want to leave one behind this time
something more thoughtful than my bloodied piece of scrap paper with 3 words on it
Lexi πΈ@lexi@lea.pet
Lexi πΈ@lexi@lea.pet
still here
still need to write it, i only have a small bit done
asking me to not do it won't change anything
telling me it will eventually get better isn't helpful
i've dragged on my life far too long
the only thing that would make living worth it is if i could be put in a better living situation
every waking moment is distressing and a violent war with myself
i carry far too much trauma to deal with on my own
i don't even know what is and isn't real anymore, osdd is so confusing
i'm permanently disabled from my last attempt
i'm so tired, and so ready for it to be over
i just need to write this for closure to make this easier, however long that may take, considering i hardly even have the energy to write it
i want there so bad to be another way
i don't want to have to do this
i don't want to be suffering so much that death is my only option and just mercy at this point
i want to be able to stay with someone who loves me so i can recover
it's so unfair, money is such a big problem that this just hasn't been an option
please why can't i just be given a rest, why did we have to be put in this capitalist world
ηγ΄γ£γ―γ·γΌ@KitsuneVixi@sakurajima.social
@lexi@lea.pet The point of capitalism is to make you desire things.
Say fuck you to the system by being happy without it's tantalizing toys.
Play with your cat, watch the birds in the trees, show everyone your amazing photos of space.
ηγ΄γ£γ―γ·γΌ@KitsuneVixi@sakurajima.social
@lexi@lea.pet Become an activist. Spread the word about how capitalism is harmful for mental health.
Furbland's Very Cool Mastodonβ’
@GroupNebula563@mastodon.social
@KitsuneVixi@sakurajima.social @lexi@lea.pet exactly! how much money would you need for a better living situation anyways? have you tried asking the @mutualaid@ovo.st group or the #MutualAid hashtag? outlining your goals and posting about them frequently will help others know what to provide. no matter how fucked up the world may seem, thereβs always hope. sometimes, you need to be the hope. if you take your life, youβre letting them win. donβt let them win. tell them to go fuck themselves.
Furbland's Very Cool Mastodonβ’@GroupNebula563@mastodon.social
@KitsuneVixi@sakurajima.social @lexi@lea.pet @mutualaid@ovo.st they want you dead. donβt give them the satisfaction of seeing you dead. keep living your glorious fucking life.
Furbland's Very Cool Mastodonβ’@GroupNebula563@mastodon.social
@KitsuneVixi@sakurajima.social @lexi@lea.pet @mutualaid@ovo.st if you take your life you ARE admitting defeat. I know you, and I know that you NEVER admit defeat. donβt you fucking dare start now.
Furbland's Very Cool Mastodonβ’@GroupNebula563@mastodon.social
@KitsuneVixi@sakurajima.social @lexi@lea.pet @mutualaid@ovo.st and one more thing: we will always, ALWAYS, be here for you. come hell or high water. we support you, and we love you, and we need you with us. NOW GO SHOW THEM WHO THE FUCKβS BOSS!