Lexi πΈ
@lexi@lea.pet
still here
still need to write it, i only have a small bit done
asking me to not do it won't change anything
telling me it will eventually get better isn't helpful
i've dragged on my life far too long
the only thing that would make living worth it is if i could be put in a better living situation
every waking moment is distressing and a violent war with myself
i carry far too much trauma to deal with on my own
i don't even know what is and isn't real anymore, osdd is so confusing
i'm permanently disabled from my last attempt
i'm so tired, and so ready for it to be over
i just need to write this for closure to make this easier, however long that may take, considering i hardly even have the energy to write it
i want there so bad to be another way
i don't want to have to do this
i don't want to be suffering so much that death is my only option and just mercy at this point
i want to be able to stay with someone who loves me so i can recover
it's so unfair, money is such a big problem that this just hasn't been an option
please why can't i just be given a rest, why did we have to be put in this capitalist world
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@lexi@lea.pet The point of capitalism is to make you desire things.
Say fuck you to the system by being happy without it's tantalizing toys.
Play with your cat, watch the birds in the trees, show everyone your amazing photos of space.
