Mystery Babylon@erosdiscordia@onycha.monster
I had a dream where I broke down and said that wished I was cis -- like that I'd actually been a girl, as I was assigned. But it's not true. I'm not a girl -- I wouldn't want to be one -- I'm glad that I'm this nonbinary male-ish thing. I'm even glad I have a vagina, despite it being what caused other people to set me down the wrong path in the first place.
I think that it's easier to wish you were cis, because then you can aim all the anger at yourself, instead of what feels like an intractable monolith of society.
I don't know. My inner voice says things will get better for us trans people. I can't push back against the whole world in the meantime, but I can stand in my own joy to be what I am. I hope it's enough, and that it helps.