Vesperys@vesperys@mementomori.social
So I made an extended version of my 'enlightenment poetry' translated into music. I felt that 8 minutes in that space wasn't long enough and I do feel it works much better as an hour. Although I feel a little silly now that I've been knocked out of peace literally right as I was uploading this video. I'm just glad it lasted long enough that I was able to complete this project.
Weird how on that morning I woke up contemplating suicide, and by the end of the day I was in a totally different headspace. The body has some strange ways of keeping one alive. The whole process reminds me of that short story by Dostoevsky, "The Dream of a Ridiculous Man."
It's not just the same 8 minutes on repeat, there's a larger overall form now. Frankly all I ever wanted was just to sit in the resonant bass but I conveyed the motion of thoughts gradually reducing in frequency of occurrence too. Like the lattice over the light slowly widening. It's more accurate to my experience anyway, I did not have a complete cessation of thought. Cloudy days still.
https://youtu.be/G0CQdvOSH94
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