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A bit after that, there was a division all-hands that I decided to attend despite me being on PTO.

I know—I probably should have just stopped right there and move on with my day. Like, fuck ‘em, that place really didn’t deserve anymore free space in my brain that day.

But the silver lining was that this new shitshow was at least making my brain no longer hyperfocus on the other shitshow I was dealing with regarding my parents 🙃🙃🙃🫠🫠🫠

Plus, I was morbidly curious WTF was going on.

Natalie
@cainaru@mastodon.social

But, the combination of those shitshows from March 2024 commenced my transition from “burnout” to “ashes in the wind” where you’re just dead inside and the wind just blows you along. Kinda like a tumbleweed. 🙃

Oh, also an undercurrent that already had me in a weird state by that point was the geopolitical-induced anxiety, disappointment & frustration I had due to my Ukrainian family still dealing with the Russian invasion & still getting bombed at.

Natalie
@cainaru@mastodon.social

So. Yeah! This is “Natalie in a Nutshell: ‘2024 Was a Dumpster Fire’ Edition” where I’ve shared some of the “avalanche of weird 💩” from my life that led me into this strange “outta control” ADHD/depressive funk that I’m still trying to get myself out of.

Natalie
@cainaru@mastodon.social

Sorry this thread is so long, and took many days for me to complete. It took a lot of mental energy to reflect and unpack things to help me understand the why behind “why am I still stuck in this ‘funk’ even in January 2025”.

Strangely enough, I feel a tiny bit better. Speaking about the challenges feels a bit cathartic.

Natalie
@cainaru@mastodon.social

If you made it all the way to the end here, thank you. I deeply appreciate it. 🙏

I owe you a beverage or snack of your choice for taking your time to read this thread about my 2024 & its events that led to this ‘funk’ 😅.

If you’ll be in Atlanta in March 24-27, I can make that happen. Just find me &tell me “Hey Nat, I spent XYZ of my time reading your thread and got to the end; so you owe me a beer/whiskey/smoothie/water/muffin/cookie/croissant/sushi/whatever”.

Again, thank you.

Cheers! 🍻

Natalie
@cainaru@mastodon.social

Stumbled across a meme that succinctly depicts how I’ve been feeling during this strange “funk”.

It me! 🫣

#Depression #ADHD #Anxiety