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This is something that's always been a problem for me. I need some amount of time pressure in order to function, but too much time pressure and I just shut down altogether. As it stands, I spend most of my day in a sort of ADHD paralysis and have to dedicate entire days to either "work" or "not work," which means I spend most of my time doing things that I don't really want to do but also feeling guilty for not being productive.
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It feels good, however, to be able to see that problem again from where I am. It's like I've climbed back up to the cliff edge that I fell off of and now I can spend some cycles trying to figure out how to prevent doing it again.
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...it's kind of refreshing to have slightly more normal problems. My top priority is still reacclimating to being away from the house.
A close second at this point, however, is finding a healthy relationship with work. As it stands, I tend to stay locked into a weekly cycle of procrastination followed by cramming, which wrecks my sleep and makes me self-conscious about the quality of my work. On top of that, the poor sleep makes me feel dumber and worsens the work procrastination.
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This is something that's always been a problem for me. I need some amount of time pressure in order to function, but too much time pressure and I just shut down altogether. As it stands, I spend most of my day in a sort of ADHD paralysis and have to dedicate entire days to either "work" or "not work," which means I spend most of my time doing things that I don't really want to do but also feeling guilty for not being productive.
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Some of you may remember that I posted a map some time ago showing how much my world had effectively shrunk since my burnout-induced agoraphobic relapse in 2023. Well, I've been working to push that boundary back out again, and I've had a lot of success lately spending more time farther from the house. I'm also spending less time in general dealing with health anxiety symptoms. I have new old problems, though. I'm functional enough that other issues are resurfacing, but...
mh+
...it's kind of refreshing to have slightly more normal problems. My top priority is still reacclimating to being away from the house.
A close second at this point, however, is finding a healthy relationship with work. As it stands, I tend to stay locked into a weekly cycle of procrastination followed by cramming, which wrecks my sleep and makes me self-conscious about the quality of my work. On top of that, the poor sleep makes me feel dumber and worsens the work procrastination.
mh+
Some of you may remember that I posted a map some time ago showing how much my world had effectively shrunk since my burnout-induced agoraphobic relapse in 2023. Well, I've been working to push that boundary back out again, and I've had a lot of success lately spending more time farther from the house. I'm also spending less time in general dealing with health anxiety symptoms. I have new old problems, though. I'm functional enough that other issues are resurfacing, but...
Inexplicably woke up today with the ability to read and interpret c++ (this has been a job requirement for my entire career)
I think I'm gonna start the process of building the cabinets and countertops that I've been wanting to build for the kitchen since I moved in and knocked down the kitchen wall.
I've actually owned the sink and faucet set that I want to install for like... 3 years. They're just sitting in the attic.
I think I'm gonna start the process of building the cabinets and countertops that I've been wanting to build for the kitchen since I moved in and knocked down the kitchen wall.
#introduction post!
I'm Nick, I'm an Electronics Engineer and serial hobbyist in Virginia, USA.
I'm a bi/pan nb 
I've been dating my wonderful gf @gella@chaos.social since 2016 ❤
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On 2/12/24 we got engaged 💍
I post about electronics, vacuum physics, making things, gender feels, queer vibes, left politics, guns (w/ CW) and music.
Nick Poole