I remember working on early robotics in the 90s that I thought were going to help disabled people have better access to everything. I wrote software to help kids learn about programming. I wrote software that helped communications protocols that I thought would bring isolated people into the world. Fuck I submitted Linux kernal core code in the goddamn 90s!
I was A BELIEVER. Like a full on fucking zealot. I was a priestess in the cult of Fully Automated Luxury Communism 25 years before that stupid ass book was even written. I wrote essays is print Linux magazines about cooperation changing the world. I built computer educational programs for underprivileged children. I wrote software languages. I built robotics programs. I started multiple tech companies. My twice dead name is on all kinds of shit from that age.
And if I could go back in time and burn my entire history to the ground I would do it in a hot minute because fuck all of that naive and childish bullshit. It was all a fucking scam.
I'm so fucking stupid.
I actually remember when RedHat went IPO. I remember thinking that was a sign of success. Like finally we were getting somewhere. Making a difference. Our vision was becoming a reality that was accepted by the broader world.
I actually thought we were winning.
I'm so fucking stupid.
In the early 90s, I started working with FreeBSD and NetBSD. Then I moved to early Linux before it was even a viable OS. I remember having to manually build my windowing system. KDE and Gnome were still over the horizon, I was using X Windows builds. I didn't even really have workable software. You ever try to use Emacs as a web browser and email client? Because I have. It was god awful.
But I was on the cusp of beauty. Free software, making computers accessible to everyone. Early Linux absolutely fucking sucked, don't let any neckbeard tell you different. It was the worst experience you could have. But I thought that if people like me fought that worst experience, and submitted patches, and wrote code, and made things better, then people without that time or experience could have something great.
I remember working on early robotics in the 90s that I thought were going to help disabled people have better access to everything. I wrote software to help kids learn about programming. I wrote software that helped communications protocols that I thought would bring isolated people into the world. Fuck I submitted Linux kernal core code in the goddamn 90s!
I was A BELIEVER. Like a full on fucking zealot. I was a priestess in the cult of Fully Automated Luxury Communism 25 years before that stupid ass book was even written. I wrote essays is print Linux magazines about cooperation changing the world. I built computer educational programs for underprivileged children. I wrote software languages. I built robotics programs. I started multiple tech companies. My twice dead name is on all kinds of shit from that age.
And if I could go back in time and burn my entire history to the ground I would do it in a hot minute because fuck all of that naive and childish bullshit. It was all a fucking scam.
It's wild that we all just straight-up sold our souls to technology because some white dudebros talked about yoga classes, free lunches, and unlimited vacation.
It's like some fucking dystopian novel.
We all just walked right into that fucking meat grinder like "Yay, companies care about us" as if it wasn't the same shit over and over again.
And now we have no physical media, no privacy, no control over our own data, and even the shit we actually buy we don't own because it can be shut off remotely or just abandoned by the servers it needs to talk to.
And we have no viable options for DIY because even the DIY shit became too complicated and corporate. So we're all stuck paying for crappy shit that doesn't work and steals all our data.
The road to fascism was paved with people like me saying "This is gonna make it better for everyone."
I fucking hate it here.
In the early 90s, I started working with FreeBSD and NetBSD. Then I moved to early Linux before it was even a viable OS. I remember having to manually build my windowing system. KDE and Gnome were still over the horizon, I was using X Windows builds. I didn't even really have workable software. You ever try to use Emacs as a web browser and email client? Because I have. It was god awful.
But I was on the cusp of beauty. Free software, making computers accessible to everyone. Early Linux absolutely fucking sucked, don't let any neckbeard tell you different. It was the worst experience you could have. But I thought that if people like me fought that worst experience, and submitted patches, and wrote code, and made things better, then people without that time or experience could have something great.
It's wild that we all just straight-up sold our souls to technology because some white dudebros talked about yoga classes, free lunches, and unlimited vacation.
It's like some fucking dystopian novel.
We all just walked right into that fucking meat grinder like "Yay, companies care about us" as if it wasn't the same shit over and over again.
And now we have no physical media, no privacy, no control over our own data, and even the shit we actually buy we don't own because it can be shut off remotely or just abandoned by the servers it needs to talk to.
And we have no viable options for DIY because even the DIY shit became too complicated and corporate. So we're all stuck paying for crappy shit that doesn't work and steals all our data.
The road to fascism was paved with people like me saying "This is gonna make it better for everyone."
I fucking hate it here.
And the worst part is there’s this whole assumption of ignorance. Like white feminists will be all “you just don’t know how it really is” and “you’re just being a shill for the male gaze” as if any expression of sexual femininity is bad.
As if generations of post-second-wave feminist have not burnt that shit to the ground already. 🙄
Always turn to the sluts and the sex workers. They know gender theory. All the white feminists know is repackaged white patriarchy.
Slutty and throwback is the fucking reason I want it. If you don’t like that then fine don’t get it on your fucking body.
And the worst part is there’s this whole assumption of ignorance. Like white feminists will be all “you just don’t know how it really is” and “you’re just being a shill for the male gaze” as if any expression of sexual femininity is bad.
As if generations of post-second-wave feminist have not burnt that shit to the ground already. 🙄
Like, yeah, I know it’s slutty. Yeah, I know it’s throwback. And yeah, I know we don’t have to wear them and have non-silk stockings now.
But that’s the problem with white second-leave feminist thinking. “I don’t like this so you shouldn’t either” is just shitty cultural evangelism.
And I fell for that shit. I hate how you constantly have to fight that shit.
Slutty and throwback is the fucking reason I want it. If you don’t like that then fine don’t get it on your fucking body.
So I’m wearing my miniskirt on the train and wishing I had my tattoo on the backs of my thighs of the cute bow tie with a line going down to my knee like a silk stocking seam.
I talked about that here and someone dropped into my mentions with an angry post about “no it’s not 1950 anymore” and another was like “eww the war is over” and…
I hate to admit that shit got to me. Like I didn’t get it because I was like “well I guess they’re right.” And how fucked up is that?
Like, yeah, I know it’s slutty. Yeah, I know it’s throwback. And yeah, I know we don’t have to wear them and have non-silk stockings now.
But that’s the problem with white second-leave feminist thinking. “I don’t like this so you shouldn’t either” is just shitty cultural evangelism.
And I fell for that shit. I hate how you constantly have to fight that shit.
So I’m wearing my miniskirt on the train and wishing I had my tattoo on the backs of my thighs of the cute bow tie with a line going down to my knee like a silk stocking seam.
I talked about that here and someone dropped into my mentions with an angry post about “no it’s not 1950 anymore” and another was like “eww the war is over” and…
I hate to admit that shit got to me. Like I didn’t get it because I was like “well I guess they’re right.” And how fucked up is that?
Black people have been saying for generations that America needs to reckon with it's racism issue and all the democrats say "Yeah, those republicans need to stop being racist" and that attitude is EXACTLY the problem with America.
Yes, the republicans are openly racist. Conservative racism is a problem. But it's only a problem because democrats are racist as fuck too. It's just that they have this liberal feel good racism that manifests is talking points and "faith in the system" and loving harder and harder policing for "safety" and throwing marginalized under the bus and all kinds of other shit.
Y'all, part of what "America needs to reckon with it's racism issue" is the fact that white democrats have this easy, passive believe in "the system," as if it just works without effort… BECAUSE IT MOSTLY DOES FOR THEM.
But marginalized communities have never been able to just say "The constitution protects me" or "The police protect me."
And now we're here, because white democrats were like "All this escalation is fine because we're still safe." Until their not and then all they have is "Wait, but…!"
Tyla (Combat Waifu Yuri Arc)