Kotes@kotaro@kotaro.me
To begin with, what sparked my interest in composing music is deeply connected to the spread of desktop music (DTM).
At the time, I could already read sheet music and play the violin reasonably well. However, since I couldn't play the piano, I wasn't able to give form to any musical ideas I had on my own.
Desktop music provided someone like me with the means to construct an entire piece of music all by myself.
Ideally, like my forefathers, I want to create my own music by playing instruments like the violin myself.
The essence of music is the mechanism of physical feedback exchanged only by those who are actually playing.
Furthermore, even the constraint of whether a piece is actually playable is nothing more than one of the elements that guarantees music's beauty.
Of course, there are composers like Nancarrow who achieve unplayable music with player pianos.
However, music is not, in essence, the sound itself. It is the interplay between the body's movements and the brain's commands that weave the sounds, and the will to vocalize or express something.
In our fathers' performances, there was communication, and a sense of simultaneity—a shared "space"—redefined by that communication. And that is something that can never be fully captured in a recording.
In this vast, vast universe, a single space-time cannot exist. This was disproven long ago by Einstein's theory of relativity, and with things like superstring theory, the dimensions are even more complex.
Perhaps we as individuals are now nothing more than lonely beings, each living in separate worlds, fragmented and unable to truly connect.
But where there is music, there is a shared space. Counterpoint, while allowing each voice to maintain its autonomy, binds our emotions, which should otherwise be solitary.
Don't you feel that right there is the very necessity of music's existence?