Renko :therian_pansexual:@cyberboy@fedi.catboy.agency
well I got my first speeding ticket today. the best part is I wasn't even going any faster than the rest of the traffic, I also have not been able to renew my out of state license so that added to the ticket.
I really am at a loss now, I feel defeated. I try my best to do everything right but bad things keep happening to me. its hard for me to justify why I keep moving forward when life has been this hard. everytime I try to do things right something bad happens.
This past year has been really rough on me, first me and my purrtner get kicked out of her parents home around the beginning of August last year and I also lost my job because of this, then a few months later right as we are getting our lives back together she gets diagnosed with cancer. it's like neither one of us can ever get a foot forward in life without having to immediately take several steps back.
I'm already so depressed that I barely get any joy out of anything, I can't even enjoy video games or TV like I used to. I just can't focus on anything, just the stress of everything is constantly running in my mind.
I'm not sure what I'm even going to do at this point. I don't have money to pay for these fines and I don't have the money for court costs to try and negotiate the fine or talk to a judge so I'm fucked
I'm just tired of everything, just existing should not be this difficult