Will :agender_flag:@AncTreat5358@mindly.social
I'm trying really hard to not go down a slippery slope or rabbit hole. I'm also not being self-indulgent or seeking pity. I'm honestly trying to evaluate this and understand it better.
What I'm eluding to here is that basically every part of my body and mind have one or more significant health conditions. I've been working for years to address these.
But sometimes of late, I question why I am doing it at all. What benefit am I providing to society and to people around me? The last thing I want to do is to be a net drain on all types of resources.
This isn't a cry for help that I am having suicidal ideation. It's more just questioning, um, life choices? I don't particularly have someone to talk this with IRL, although I'm trying to engage with a therapist that can shed some light on this and other important mental topics.
Any insights are most appreciated, dear Fediversians.
#PhysicalHealth #MentalHealth #HealthConditions
Mary Starbuck@autoperipatetikos@neurodifferent.me
@AncTreat5358@mindly.social This is tough. I have been thinking that it's all too much work for not enough benefit. If doctors worked with each other and joined up to treat "me" as opposed to my individual health needs, it would be a very different story. As it is, I have reached a new level of crisis from chasing too many doctors. I have to face being not believed and not treated properly, whether I have managed to see all these doctors or not.
You sound like you're trying really hard and doing the best you can. I'm not sure we are given enough credit for all the work we have to do.
