Sophie@sophiesometimes@anarres.family
I had a new (to me) feeling this afternoon:
I’m happy
I mean, I’ve felt happiness before when really good things happened in my life. But this was different.
I’m happy because I’m finally living the life I was supposed to live.
So much of my first almost two years of transition has been about endings. About my life falling down around me. About uncertainty regarding what I wanted and fear to take the next steps.
So today, here I am, sitting in a restaurant, in my cutest Librariancore outfit with my favorite skirt, chatting with a reasonably new in real life friend, and just being seen as another woman in that restaurant. And then going to order my boba (as I must), and having the cashier just take my order in the normal, bored way cashiers take yet another order. Because I’m just another woman ordering her drink.
Early on, so much of what pushed me forward was gender euphoria. But now, what I really enjoy is just being able to live the really mundane life of a woman.
And it makes me happy.
#TransJoy