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nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

Someone once told me I'm too sincere to be funny.

Full-time caregiver to a disabled brother and father interested mainly in Thoreau, Zhuangzi, animism, Kings of Convenience, and drinking tea.

Master's degrees in music theory and theology (nonpracticing), classically trained and folk musician (also nonpracticing), and I once organized and helped plant over 800 trees on abandoned mine land (I do still plant trees occasionally).


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nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social
selfie, eye contact

feeling better about 38

Selfie of me on my birthday. Curly brown hair and a short beard and wearing a black Led Zeppelin shirt my son got me for my birthday last year
nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

We are the morning mushrooms, simultaneously connected to and dependent on a vast underground network from which we emerge, flowering and fruiting, temporary and fleeting, coming and going with each day.

https://write.as/radiantdoubts/we-are-the-morning-mushrooms

nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

1/ Thinking more about this sentence from a blog post from a couple months ago:

How we relate to nature is connected to how we relate to people like my brother; what we mean when we say “nature” is connected to what we mean when we say “disability.”

https://write.as/radiantdoubts/disability-in-the-wild

As I read more anthropology, it seems what we mean when we say "nature" is (unsurprisingly) unfixed. And, therefore, what we mean when we say "disabled" or "disability" is also unfixed.

nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

I have been feeling disoriented this autumn, out of place and time. I had been making attempts to write something since the beginning of October but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't do it. And what made it even worse was the guilt I felt for not being able to pull myself out of it.

In a way, that was exactly the problem: there wasn't anything I could do to orient myself, to place myself in time and place again.

https://write.as/radiantdoubts/to-know-and-be-known

nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

I'm late to the game because I don't know what I'm doing, so a brief #introduction:

I take care of my disabled brother full-time and stress about it the rest of the time. When I have the capacity I like to read and think about #Zhuangzi, #Thoreau, #animism, and #indigenousknowledge like the work of Tyson Yunkaporta and VF Cordova. I also drink too much tea (#gongfucha), am a former classical and folk musician, and wish I could sit under more trees

#disability #caregiver #introductions #daoism

nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

I brought my son out to watch the moonrise; he wanted me to tell him a story so I made one up—a mashup of the very hungry caterpillar, the dreaming butterfly story from Zhuangzi, with some elderberries and full moons thrown in for good measure

nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

the moon of wild rice

#moonscrolling

The full moon low in the sky and with an orange tint. The tops of trees can barely be seen in the bottom right in front of the moon.
nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

which teenage barn swallow are you?

#Birding

five juvenile barn swallows in their nest built in a support beam under a corrugated metal roof.
nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

Warning Herzog

A train car with ‘HERZOG’ in large letters on the side. In very small yellow letter me above it says ‘Warning!’ There is graffiti at the bottom of the train.
nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

went exploring and found a swimming hole near our new house

#Waterfall #WaterfallWednesday

A waterfall in the woods. There are two strata of rocks in a horseshoe shape the water is flowing down. Lots of plants are growing on the second stratum and trees are on the top level. There is a large pool at the bottom great for swimming. The same waterfall from the other side. There are two strata of rocks in a horseshoe shape the water is flowing down. Lots of plants are growing on the second stratum and trees are on the top level. There is a large pool at the bottom great for swimming. A large tree is submerged on the bottom right creating a great spot for fish to congregate.
nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

#SilentSunday

A chipmunk peeking out from behind a dirt covered wall. Just the top of their head and eyes are visible.
nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social
selfie, eye contact

feeling better about 38

Selfie of me on my birthday. Curly brown hair and a short beard and wearing a black Led Zeppelin shirt my son got me for my birthday last year
nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

I have been feeling disoriented this autumn, out of place and time. I had been making attempts to write something since the beginning of October but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't do it. And what made it even worse was the guilt I felt for not being able to pull myself out of it.

In a way, that was exactly the problem: there wasn't anything I could do to orient myself, to place myself in time and place again.

https://write.as/radiantdoubts/to-know-and-be-known

nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

If you're looking for a longish weekend read I've finally got a new blog post.

https://freeanduneasy.blog/to-know-and-be-known/

#WritingCommunity #LongReads #WeekendReading #Blog #Animism #Thoreau

nathanlovestrees
@nathanlovestrees@disabled.social

1/ Thinking more about this sentence from a blog post from a couple months ago:

How we relate to nature is connected to how we relate to people like my brother; what we mean when we say “nature” is connected to what we mean when we say “disability.”

https://write.as/radiantdoubts/disability-in-the-wild

As I read more anthropology, it seems what we mean when we say "nature" is (unsurprisingly) unfixed. And, therefore, what we mean when we say "disabled" or "disability" is also unfixed.