Brutkey

Melody :PoweredByNeocatFloof:
@mstar@mk.absturztau.be
Melody :PoweredByNeocatFloof:
@mstar@mk.absturztau.be
not mental health - but an explanation

Due to my past of constantly getting knocked down hard, constantly getting betrayed, constantly being stuck in an environment that seems to hate me, I'm used to having to fight all the time, with all of my power, just to keep the status quo. I expect, at best, for nothing to change, or, more likely, things getting worse. I don't have any grand plan. No big goal to strive towards.

And yet, I keep on moving. Keep on fighting to make it to the next day. All to get another attempt at those heavily weighted and stacked against me dice. Hoping, maybe foolishly, that eventually I'll maybe manage to hit that infinitely small chance of seeing an improvement, no matter how small

Melody :PoweredByNeocatFloof:
@mstar@mk.absturztau.be

Huh, turns out I never posted my character's ref sheet (and how I wish I looked irl, with very few adjustments) on this account. So here, have the ref sheet. I love her and this concept of mixing the aesthetics of steampunk and scifi

A reference sheet for my character (and still really close to how I wish I looked irl). She has brown hair and a mostly steampunk aesthetic with the clothes' colour scheme matching the hair. The elbow high gloves have a yellow glowy symbol hovering above (it's like an eye above the hand's back, with two curved lines going up the arm and four small triangles attached towards the fingers). She also has a tail and slightly fluffy cat ears. The clothing consists of a tophat, a leather jacket/blazer, a white shirt, brown skirt, leather belt, fishnet leg wear and high brown leather boots. The look is completed by a blue scifi panel hovering in front of one hand which is stretched out to interact with it and another smaller popup panel, attached to a small metal bridge, like a monocle, in front of the left eye.
Melody :PoweredByNeocatFloof:
@mstar@mk.absturztau.be

Have you ever wanted to meet or visit the Melody? Are you willing and capable of reaching Karlsruhe, Germany?

Well, you're in luck because I have way too much free time. The only consistent time drains I have are school and work, so if you want to meet/visit me, just send a message (kinda hard to know that you'd want to otherwise, I can't read minds). Short term requests are no problem, but giving me some more time to prepare can open up some potentially cool options.


Or do you need some company? Emergency hugs? Someone to talk or vent to?

Well, this offer also extends into the other direction. If you want me to come over and are within the city, you're also free to request that. If the rest of my day is downtime, rapid deployment can also be available. For long term planning, a distance of up to 2h via Deutschlandticket train is also available

Melody :PoweredByNeocatFloof:
@mstar@mk.absturztau.be

The strong need to make and see others happy vs the damage it does to me since I have no one wanting to support me

Melody :PoweredByNeocatFloof:
@mstar@mk.absturztau.be

Need to somehow find more friends to visit and cuddle.
Problem: I have absolutely no idea how to do so (the finding friends part, already working on the cuddling part)