"Next Stop: Broken Hearts"
Broken hearts meet there, unbeknownst
All sorrows are there, but won't be spoken.
Broken souls, life's injustices,
Destiny's lonelinesses,
the hearts that carry them all.
Soul sadnesses, life's wearinesses
City's lonesomeness,
the hearts that carry them all.
Some are broken by past loves
Some are broken by past mistakes
Some are broken by close friends' betrayals
Some are broken by life's whiplashes.
"Next stop is Broken Hearts",
Stop!, someone wants to exit there;
... deliver sorrows
... fill the glasses and get drunk
... until all the years' weariness falls off.
"Let's party", say broken hearts there
... to forget all the sorrows.
Broken hearts meet there, unbeknownst...
I have this pinned to my profile: https://tau-ceti.space/@ics/113545645582208121
And I've been thinking, especially the last few days.
When I see some of my trans siblings thinking about detransitioning or stopping their transition or trying to see if they could still pass as their AGAB - out of fear...
... I dunno, I never could do that! NEVER!
And the reason is because of the what I wrote in that post: I want to LIVE!!
EVERY. SINGLE. DAY!!!
I don't want to die every single day, I WANT TO LIVE!
And live I can only as my real self. Anything else is living - no, dying - by "their" rules, would be giving in to "them", surrendering and denying my true self.
NO!! I WILL NOT!!
I will continue living, as myself, as MY REAL SELF!!!
WHATEVER THE COST TO ME!
And if that makes "them" angry, makes "them" hate me even more, then I will live out of spite!!
Please be aware of these DNI (Do Not Interact). If you interact and I see one of these things, I'll block.
1. ‼
️ DNI if you have a serious (i.e. non-joke/non-mocking) Threads account!
2. ‼️ DNI if you think AI will save us!
3. ‼️ DNI if you believe everything technically possible should also be implemented!
4. ‼️ DNI if you think a person's value is based on anything else than them being alive!
5. ‼️ DNI if you think different people should have different (human) rights!
6. ‼️ DNI if you are a chaser. I am not your kink! None of my siblings are! You will be reported and blocked!
7. ‼️ DNI if you think a group of self-declared mods/admins should decide what is blocked and not blocked on Fedi!
8. ‼️ DNI if you think TBS is a good idea!
9. ‼️ No, I am not gonna discuss with nazis, terfs, racists, transphobes, ableists, misogynists, "both-siders", and whatnot!
I guess it is time to update the #introduction.
Hi, I am Imdat Celeste (they/them; de: dey/dem).
You may call me "Imdat", "Celeste", "Imdat Celeste", "iso" (for historic reasons) or "Hi-ya".
If we know each other better, you can also call me "Yo lovely!", "Hiya beauty", "Hi cutie" and "Hello sexy" (or similar - you know what I mean). And if we know each other really well, you will know my secret name and what to use it for 😈
.
Nice to meet you.
First and foremost I am a human being who loves every living being on this beautiful planet and is honored to spend time with some of them.
Professionally, I am a veteran software engineer who loves modernizing ancient software by carefully, slowly rewriting while it is still operating - without disruptions.
I am married to a wonderful person who is so full of love that she sometimes struggles with the universe (or with humanity). And I am a proud father (yes, "father"*) of a woman with a brilliant & beautiful mind and a heart as big as the universe (who also happens to have Mastery of Words™
️).
I love learning new things from complete strangers. The stranger the new knowledge the more fascinating it is for me.
I have a #FragMyBrain (autistic, OCD, ND) so be ready for detailed explanations, where each word is carefully chosen & positioned in the sentence, but still some will be missing.
I quickly fall in love with brilliant people with Mastery of Words™️ (language mastery skills) [I just learned today that this is called "sapiosexual" 🤷
].
You can always shitpost with me & talk garbage - as long as it is done intelligently, with wit & humor, and respect.
The fastest way to land on my block list is not to make a mistake, but to repeatedly make the same stupid mistake again and again and insist on it being right, or being racists, queer-/transphobic, ableist, disrespectful, white supremecist, etc., etc. - you know what I mean. There is always enough space in the "Dungeon of Blocked Accounts".
I will post about anything that my #ActuallyAutistic brain will come up with: politics (CW'ed), #Trans topics, #Musings, #WorkTopics, #Blahaj, #Blåhaj, #Flutter, #Languages, #GoodMorningAgatha, #Cats, #CatsOfMastodon, #Dogs, #Animals in general, #Beauty, #Love, #TransJoy, #TransPride, #OldFriends, #NewFriends, #EnbyOnTrain, #Trainabout, #Enby, #NonBinary, #EnbyJoy, #NonBinaryJoy, #GoodNightFediverse, sometimes even #Religion, #Nature, ... you see: there is no limit!
I will add CW and mark as sensitive whenever I think so. If I forget once, please inform me and I'll correct it as fast as I can. I don't discuss with you whether something "really needs" CW/sensitive marker or not, I just accept it if you feel my post needs one.
I wear my feelings on my skin, i.e. what you read and see is who I really am, there is no IRL Imdat Celeste and a different, Fediverse Imdat Celeste: you will see a lot of 🫂
,💜
,😍
,🥰
,🥹
,😳
... and more. If you feel it is intruding, please let me know.
I come over differently, but I am also very insecure: so, I will add a lot of emojis - just to be sure.
Also, please don't expect a "normal person" here: I am completely, utterly, hopelessly an un-normal person.
Lastly, my posts may start with one specific topic but during the text itself it may just become something completely different - "Train of Thought".
Again, nice to meet you - I am always looking for more new friends...
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*: I am a trans femme non-binary person. When I came out to her, my daughter asked me how she should call me from then on and since it is an honor to be her father, that, yeah, I am and will always be that.
#MeAsMyself
ORIGINALLY written: 2022-12-28, 13
As yesterday was my coming-out anniversary, I started thinking about the previous inhabitant of this body.
I am so thankful to him!
He always knew about me but he also knew that it was not safe to come out for me.
He took care of us all: him, me, and our body.
It was a very difficult time. But he knew that one day I will come out.
He knew that the body we had was not what I wanted
So, he started laser hair removal some 20+ years ago. Only areas he deemed safe enough…
When our environment got used to that, he continued with other areas.
While I was still figuring out what I was - was I gay, bi? - he would let me take over from time to time and try out - but only if he deemed it safe enough.
The moment he saw a danger, he would take over.
Otherwise he would let me just try out something.
Just let me try to figure out who and what I was…
He never forced me to be something or someone.
He never told me I should be this or that or that I should try out this or that.
He would just let me be.
But above all, he always protected me and made sure, I was safe, sound and alive.
Hidden, but alive and slowly growing.…He started secret HRT a while ago.
Carefully watching all the effects and not going too far as to not bring us in danger…
His was a life of hardship, worry, and care. But we also had some fun together.
When the moment came that I finally knew who and what I was and he was sure it was safe for me to come out, he happily stepped aside and handed over the reigns to our body.
Ready to immediately take them back if I couldn’t handle them.
Ready to immediately jump in and continue protecting me if I asked for.
Ready to protect me until the end…
Now he is sleeping.
Now I am the one protecting him and … us.
Now he can sleep.
I am immensely thankful to him and will never forget him.
Sleep well, my friend.
I’ll see you again when it is time for us to leave this world - together!
i. celeste aurora :v_tg: :v_nb: :v_genderfluid: [witchzard]