To be fair though, the “Honestly-Unsurprising-October-Surprise of 2024” wasn’t the only unpleasantry within the last third of 2024 though. So my slow pace of mental and emotional homeostasis makes sense I guess. Because this “funk” goes beyond just “Yay I finally have free time to recover from years of work burnout, but I’m not getting back ‘on the saddle’ fast enough”.
So. For example, late summer before the “Honestly-Unsurprising-October-Surprise of 2024” I was dealing with one helluva sinus/ear infection. It morphed into a double ear infection after the first round of antibiotics (my luck of course 🤣
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But, there’s an annoyingly persistent, impatient part of me that keeps squawking, “Hey, it’s been ~12 weeks since that one chapter in your life closed. What have you actually done within that time?”
And I think that loud, impatient voice is sparked by my own fears of what others, on the outside, may perceive of me during this time and what I’ve been doing with this new “freedom of time” up until now.
To be fair though, the “Honestly-Unsurprising-October-Surprise of 2024” wasn’t the only unpleasantry within the last third of 2024 though. So my slow pace of mental and emotional homeostasis makes sense I guess. Because this “funk” goes beyond just “Yay I finally have free time to recover from years of work burnout, but I’m not getting back ‘on the saddle’ fast enough”.
And TBH, it actually does feel right to me to be operating at this pace and still be journeying through this “funk” (honestly feels like I’m 85% of the way through the “funk” currently—just 15% to go!)
But, there’s an annoyingly persistent, impatient part of me that keeps squawking, “Hey, it’s been ~12 weeks since that one chapter in your life closed. What have you actually done within that time?”
And I think that loud, impatient voice is sparked by my own fears of what others, on the outside, may perceive of me during this time and what I’ve been doing with this new “freedom of time” up until now.
I mean, I am an overthinker so I kind of expected this journey to begin with a lot of time stuck in my own head 🤣
And TBH, it actually does feel right to me to be operating at this pace and still be journeying through this “funk” (honestly feels like I’m 85% of the way through the “funk” currently—just 15% to go!)
I can’t wait until I finally fully get out of this weird “funk” I’ve been in, so I can actually do something fun (e.g., finally learn more about Single Directory Components and how to create them, so that I can actually help with something in Drupal Starshot that seems “right up my alley”; start re-brainstorming the architecture & content model for building our household “knowledge base”/“service request” system in Drupal 10+ akin to the one John built in D7 for SLU IT; etc.)
#Depression #ADHD
I mean, I am an overthinker so I kind of expected this journey to begin with a lot of time stuck in my own head 🤣
I can’t wait until I finally fully get out of this weird “funk” I’ve been in, so I can actually do something fun (e.g., finally learn more about Single Directory Components and how to create them, so that I can actually help with something in Drupal Starshot that seems “right up my alley”; start re-brainstorming the architecture & content model for building our household “knowledge base”/“service request” system in Drupal 10+ akin to the one John built in D7 for SLU IT; etc.)
#Depression #ADHD
Natalie