Notes | Brutkey

Once upon a time, @mangled_pixel@kind.social posted a collection of pride-themed Star Trek insignia. I cannot find the original posts but I saved the images and decided to make 3D printed versions based on them, modified a little bit.

Here’s my first attempt! It still needs a little work but I’m generally happy with the outcome.

Not sure if there are any trans folks who are also Trek fans, but there might be a couple.

Thank you, Jen, for the inspiration.

It’s a necklace on a wooden table. A plain black strap supports a golden Star Trek insignia with 3 colored bars on the side in white, pink and blue, the colors of the transgender pride flag. 🏳️‍⚧️

Nora, purple afficionado
@bumpus@mas.to

Sometimes I feel like nothing has changed since transitioning. And then sometimes I look at an old picture of me next to a recent one and think “nothing has changed” because my brain is still very broken. Send help.

An old picture of Nora presenting masculine pasted next to a recent photo of Nora looking much more femme. They’re in similar standing and smiling poses but otherwise there’s obvious differences in their appearance, despite what my stupid brain says about nothing changing.

Nora, purple afficionado
@bumpus@mas.to

It’s been 500 days since I discovered I wasn’t actually a guy and started living as my true self, as Nora, as a trans woman. It hasn’t always been easy, but it’s always been worth it. Come with me on a little journey through my first 18 months as Nora. #trans

An 18-image timeline showing Nora, a white middle aged trans woman with purple hair, from November 2022 to April 2024, one picture a month. She starts out pretty hairy and masculine and ends up slightly less hairy and less masculine-looking. Really, most of the changes are on the inside.

Nora, purple afficionado
@bumpus@mas.to

Would you trust her to design your microchip’s testing features?

Yeah, me neither. Luckily my boss does.

Selfie of Nora standing in front of a wooden door. Shes a middle-aged white trans woman looking at the camera with a slight smirk on her face. She’s wearing large pink-framed glasses, hoop earrings, and has long purple hair all combed over to one side, with flecks of silver glittery fairy hair in it. The sides of her head are shaved.

Nora, purple afficionado
@bumpus@mas.to

The are the 2 paragraphs from https://genderdysphoria.fyi/ that changed my life. These words were the final straws that broke the wall of denial I had built over a lifetime, when I could no longer deny I was #trans

You are given a magical button that will permanently swap your gender, giving you an “opposite-gendered” body that is equivalent to your own in age, fitness, and attractiveness. If you press the button, everybody in your life will have always known you as a girl. They will accept you immediately. You will not lose your partner, your job, or your family. Do you press it?

Cis people would not even consider pressing this button, by the way. If you know deep down that you’d press it but are still afraid to self-accept as trans, then your sticking point probably has more to do with your fear of transitioning than it does with your true identity.

Nora, purple afficionado
@bumpus@mas.to

I spent my childhood learning everything that was wrong with me. I spent my teenage years learning how to cover up those flaws. And I’ve spent my adulthood realizing it was all BS, there’s nothing wrong with me, and working to unlearn it all.