Brutkey

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone
Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone
pol

Countries that commit genocide neither have a right to defend themselves, nor a right to exist.

This should not be controversial!

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone

Today is the last day on which I've known @Senna@tech.lgbt for less that a year. 🥰🥰

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone
israhell

I'm all for delivering ordenance to #Israel while it engages in #genocide, as long as the delivery goes to military bases and the main funcionality is used imidiately upon arrival.

I mean, at this point, turning Tel Avif into Dresden would at the very least be fitting, if nothing else...

(Now waiting for all the Zionists to explain to me, that the strategic bombing of Nazi Germany was wrong and should have been punished...)

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone

@bert_hubert@eupolicy.social Will need it quite soon though, we are about to leave (from Eindhoven)…

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone
weight loss (++)

I just weighed myself and got 97.1 kg. This equates to a BMI of 29.97 kg∕m².

This means, that as of today, going by the generally accepted definition of the term, I am no longer obese!

(I’m still overweight, but not in the “you have to loose weight RIGHT NOW”-category.)

It also means that I now have a weight at which I am actually eligible for bottom surgery.

It means that any further dieting is going to be because I want it, not because of extrinsic motivations and outside pressure.

It means that I lost 32.9 kg (10.1 kg∕m²) over the course of 4.5 months, or alternatively 20 weeks. (Starting at the 20th of February, with today being the 10th of July)

It means that I went through four different weight categories in that time: Obesity level 3 (just on the very edge, with a starting BMI of 30.1 kg∕m²), obesity level 2, obesity level 1, and as of today regular overweight.

It means that I lost a quarter (!) of my weight, and that I am halfway to my goal of halving my weight.

I’m not going to have my celebratory lunch yet, first I want to hit 95 kg to have a bit of a buffer, but knowing that I’m finally there is still SOOO nice!

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone

As of this evening I am now #unemployed. (Contract ran out.)

There is a small chance that I might come back to TU/e, but that depends on funding and that doesn’t look great right now. In other words: If you are looking for a cryptographer (with Dutch PhD-equivalent) specialized in post-quantum key-exchange protocols in the Netherlands or fully remote (I am currently somewhat tied to staying in the Dutch healthcare system), feel free to contact me.

#GetFediHired

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone

Without any reference to a current event (which makes this a good time to post this): If you think I fucked up in an interaction with you and my apology comes across as insincere: The latter is probably not the case, I just have a very strong instinct that I should explain myself, which can sadly come across as me trying to justify actions (especially if the explanation is very long and the „sorry“ is only at the start or ending), when that is rarely how it is meant. What I actually mean to do there is to show my line of thinking that led to the fuck up to demonstrate the lack of ill intent.

There is a good chance that this is an autism thing, but please believe me when I say, that I only say sorry for things that I’m actually sorry about.

Because as a general rule, I’m not someone backing down to social pressure if I believe that I am in the right and will make that clear when communicating: I will still reach out to attempt to see if there may have been misunderstandings and to see if whatever relationship I have with the person in question can be saved, but I won’t give in on points that I deem to be true. That is what being principled means to me, and what I want people to be able to expect from me.

A big reason why I may still reach out in those cases is that in my experiences most conflicts result from communication fuckups and it always saddens me when that causes friendships or similar to break, even when just looking at it as an outsider, let alone when I’m an involved party.

Now, on the rare occasion that I actually DO have ill intent towards someone (almost exclusively public figures, but there may be exceptions to this rule): You WILL be able to tell! If you have doubts, it’s probably not that!

So: If you are wondering whether I fucked up communicating or tried to avoid blame: It’s probably the former. I know I’m bad at it.

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone

I guess with my new server an #introduction that I never explicitly wrote on tech.lgbt might be in order.

I’m a cryptographer currently working at TU Eindhoven on cryptographic protocol design and decided during my PhD that what I had experienced for most of my life was gender dysphoria after all and transitioned. I’m out and proud and finally even officially on HRT!

Politically I’m pretty far to the left, but very much reserve (and make use of!) my right to hold opinions that diverge from the general consensus if I deem the consensus bad.

I believe in firm moral principles and that a person’s way of arriving at a conclusion is often much more interesting than the conclusion itself. People who reasoned themselves into a wrong position are often much more interesting than people who arrived at a correct position without reasoning.

I believe that the value of understanding people who are different is commonly overestimated. You shouldn’t need to understand someone to be supportive of them. It is seeing you support someone whom you don’t understand, that will earn you my trust!

I believe that most people are acting in good faith and that most interpersonal conflicts are the result of miscommunication and non-malicious fuck-ups. I therefore believe that it should be possible to talk through most issues that arise between honest actors and really value communication in case of disagreements.

I consider the state of transgender-healthcare in most countries a direct violation of various human-rights and therefore consider DIY-HRT (better term: OpenHRT) and similar DIY treatments a moral imperative and any laws counteracting it unjustifiable in the situation and thus void.

I have some degree of hobbyist interest in law and justice systems (primarily German) and will occasionally post about this. Some of these posts will be in German only. Sorry, but not sorry for that.

I remark that this is a clear-name account and that I am fully aware that I am unambiguously identifiable and fine with that, it is a conscious decision after all.

Fiona :transbian: :autism:
@Fiona@blahaj.zone

No matter where I am, the hot takes will continue until the revolution improves!